Sunday, February 19, 2006
memories kept on rushing back to me wherever i go. i miss them dearly. bt at the same time i hate them cuz they alwaes made me ponder upon certain things and how much truth and reality hurt. something so simple last time has become so complicated now. being a practical person, i've accepted the answers i've found. heard my frens talking about certain things and realise how ignorant they are abt the truth. maybe it'z better to be left in the dark sometimes. cuz the truth juz spoils everything beautiful.
i alwaes tink dat we shdn't change ourselves for anione unless that person could make us change for the better. i dun tink i could ever make anione change for the better. hahaaa. and i'm serious abt wad i said cuz i'm no better off myself. i've been silly enough for the past years. also duno when can i grow up. seems lik i've thrown away my pride thru those stupid acts of mine. blinded by my own temptations, dere'z no one i could and would blame except for myself. my frens haf predicted things and i'm not even sure of a certain answer. if really so, den i would just be a fool once again.
the last time that i'm going to be irrational. i've spent too much time looking back and realised how redundant that iz. becuz of dat, i've missed out too much. had thrown away things dat once belonged to me. hahaha. things seem to have returned to zero point for me again. dowana hate anione cuz that really sucks and overtime i most probably would become some cunning jian nu ren. hahahah. nono. hating someone makes u ugly. yuckz. anyway, still will jiayou~~!!!! all i need is juz a bit more time.
to my frens, please dun worry for me cuz i noe i sound quite mature in this entry. lol. juz writing down my thots. dun question me abt it ok. heheee :)
im falling into memories.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
piles of sch work are stacking up and i hate it. beginning to hate sch more and more. hai. this is a bad sign. dun feel like talking abt sch work la. todae went yiki house to bainian and play mahjong. i realised dat sitting back facing the door is really a gd position and it really works. hahahaa. quite qie men. when i changed seating, my luck turned for the worse. at nite oni left with me wk and yiki's mum left to play the 3 people mahjong. there'z a lot less tiles den it'z relatively easier to zuo pai. i'm so lucky dat i manage to get qing yi se twice. i likes circles. hehehe. they look cute. dun lik wan zi. tink they look bery serious. lol. definitely learnt more about mahjong todae. hope i dun get addicted to it ba. heee. auntie is bery entertaining and cute also. hehehe. u will understand when u play mahjong wif her. she will tell u wad tiles she want one. so friendly. not lik wk, alwaes so scheming. she so encouraging somemore lor. wk must go and reflect on his actions le. played until 12 plus. feel like continuing bt den too late le. need to go home or else tmr no time to do work. it'z time to go slp le. update when i'm free :)
im falling into memories.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
went back to malaysia on tues early early morning. reached my grandma house at ard 9 plus in the morning so u can imagine how early iz dat. has been quite long since i went back to celebrate chinese new year. i like the feeling of reunion from both sides of the family. unlike in singapore, i practically just rot at home or go out wif frens on such special occasions. anewae, saw all my young cousins who are damn cute la. so naive and pure. if oni everyone can be lidat hor. played blackjack with them den u can just tell from their expressions wad pts they get one. so easy to bian them. hehehe.
caught up with my cousin szehua a lot on our childhood daes. miss them so much. miss the old house dat i used to go whenever i went back to malaysia. we did dumb things. did funni things. and of course kiam pa things as well like stealing other pple's mangos from the trees, burning the leaves of pple's plants etc and some paiseh things which i'm damn paiseh to sae la. luff our heads off talking abt those stuff. in malaysia, pple put fireworks lik no one's business. their fireworks are just like the ones put in singapore where we can oni see once a year. see how strict singapore is hor.
some distant relatives oso came to visit my grandma and itz alwaes the same old things they will sae when they see u. all would look at u like u come from another planet lidat. guess many pple experience dat before ba. hahaha. returned home at ard 7 todae. so tired. so many things left to do. my wish for this coming year is to be happie everydae. sounds easy.
anewae happy lunar new year~~~~
im falling into memories.
